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Re: This Metamorphosis: the Race Against Death |
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eliyah |
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Aug 27, 08 - 5:39 PM |
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Joian,
I loved EVERYTHING you shared...it blessed me so much. Thank you.
You wrote..."........and now I understood I, was the seed and I knew all my old wants, desires, hopes for the future and anything for myself....was to go on the altar.....I grieved all day as he dealt in specifics, in my inward parts.....he showed me more in one day than I had seen in years......and the odd part was how he was showing me to rise up as part of dying to the old.....I wondered how many more times I would be on the altar and then I didn't care.....I just said do it Lord.....burn it up...."
My heart was so touched by these words of yours. I remember of uttering those FINAL WORDS too...BURN IT UP..CONSUME ME everconsuming FIRE of God. He was doing an instense work allright..for He was having me PURGE everything...down to christian books, cd's, old journals, and finally saying good bye to the old woman. I felt sorry for the old woman...b/c I felt like she had messed things up for so long and now that she was finally getting it right I was now having to GRIEVE her..and let her die. I remember actually talking out loud to her...telling her good bye...through tears....and embracing WHO HE IS in me. It was during this time that before the actual death that for almost a year when I would cry...my cry sounded strange...sounded old and TIRED, like there was barely any strength in my cry...and honestly it was PAINFUL to listen to...I know when others heard me like this it was painful for them too...for it was so a very UNIQUE cry.
The Lord revealed to me what this cry was...and how it was manifesting in the natural. This was the DEATH CRY.
I remember watching the movie "Little Women" and there is a scene where one of the sisters is near death...from a pro-longed WEAKENED HEART illness...and as she is talking through her tears I could hear MY VOICE...the same CRY...and that is when the Lord revealed to me that I had been dying and finally the night came when I too DIED. And since then I no longer have had the sound of the DEATH CRY. I still cry but not from the soul...from the NEW CREATION SPIRIT.
Where James Rohdes speaks of 'crossing the finish line'...and there is another story I could share on that that is GLORIOUS but I will leave it for another time.
There is real pain in saying good-bye...a real grief...and real DEATH...and only those that truly have gotten REAL AND RAW in this place with our Father can understand what you are speaking about.
I rejoice that you have said YES! BURN IT UP!
Oh! My sister the angels shouted for JOY on that day! I really do believe that. I really do believe that the word is true regarding 'how precious in the sight of the Lord are the death of His saints'.
You have chosen to go all the way HIS WAY and I am so blessed to know you.
Speaking of...I laughed at your opening statement of JOIAN COME LATELY....for through the spirit I have seen you as the FEMININE JHONNA....and I am not surprised that the masculine John and the feminine Jhonna have the SONSHINE blog together!
Truly you BOTH are the BELOVED of the LORD.
love,
eliyah |
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