I feel similar.
The idea that nihilism is denial of truth is
becouse the accused identifies truth with values
and morality
and whants to prove that no one is capable of not having a morality becouse "HE/SHE" replace knowledge
with morality.

However. I have started to disbelief in truth
becouse I just can't invest faith nor emotion.
I can't truth any scientific authority anymore
becouse all scientists have strong secular moralities
ergo I must deny majority of science with their morality.
I cannot accept a scientistis who is not nihilistic.

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